for manahil

text me “panda and doggy😉” and I’ll send you a picture of something you never get tired of seeing cause I love ya

My Mahiwu

Not a list of rules for you. A list of promises for us, the same ones, both ways, before you go.

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scroll, my love

before you read

manahil. my favorite girl in the world..

even so much has happened recently and we have been getting in so many arguments i am the happiest man alive inside to know i've had the opportunity to make it this far with the girl of my dreams. these year n month or wtv with you have been amazing even with everything going on recently you are still my world. you are geneiuly the only person that gets me through the day and throwing that away would be so stupid. things are really hard rn. really really hard. but are we even meant to be if we don't try. all couples give up when things get hard and that's why they don't get a ring on their finger. every couple thinks they are ride or die so do we. but when things get tough they leave.

your everything to me everything and i love u so much that words can't even explain. if i could tell you how much i tried to make myself break up with u but i know for a fact i'm losing my wife in the process. i can't marry anyone else ever. and now i will proudly say manahil azeem to help u get over the thought of me breaking up with u my beuaitful girl. wallahi i'm going to put a ring on ur finger unless you do something very wrong. you're going to be my wife and i will see zoya. giving up on you is basically giving up on zoya and i can't do that. she is so cute. she is just our little panda but we can't see her.

i love you so much bby. i hope you change for me. i am going to deal with it but i hope we can live happily instead of arguments all the time. please change. please try harder. your everything to me everything and i love u so much that words can't even explain. you're my first and only and last love. thank you for being in my life and thank you for all the hangouts. your hugs just want to make me go to sleep and cry in ur arms of because of how much i love you my baby. i love you and i won't ever say it enough.

We are gonna get thru college one day we are gonna travel the world together and see really cool things. then we can bring zoya along and our family's and we will live happily ever after. i love you so much my beuaitful girl. thank you for being the most precious girl in the wholest world. you know ur just my autistic cutie pumpkin right. i wove you forever. please change. i want my life to be with u and i can't imagine it being with anyone else ever. Enjoy mahiwu website and promises

Our Promises

thirteen things, both ways

01

No lying

This is the one everything else sits on top of. There's room for mistakes in every other part of us, not this one.

my promise

I tell you the truth even when the truth makes me look bad, and I don't punish you for telling me yours.

your promise

You tell me the truth even when you're scared of how I'll take it. If something happened, I hear it from you first.

02

It's us vs the problem

If we get mad at each other, we're not just gonna ignore each other for days or go to sleep mad.

my promise

I come back and fix it. If I need space I say 'I need a minute,' not silence for two days.

your promise

You come back too. We talk it out, hear each other out, and figure it out.

03

Respect, no matter what

No insults, no embarrassing each other, no trying to hurt each other on purpose just because we're mad.

my promise

I don't say things to hurt you. I don't throw the past at you in a fight.

your promise

You don't either. We can disagree and still be soft with each other.

04

The people around us

Who we spend time with shapes who we become. We want people who make us better, not people who pull us away from our deen or our goals.

my promise

I keep good people around me and I stay away from anything haram.

your promise

You do the same, you pick people who respect that you're taken and who don't drag you somewhere you don't wanna be.

05

Location, both ways

Find My stays on for both of us. This one was more of a me problem than a you problem, honestly.

my promise

Mine stays on, always. You never have to ask.

your promise

Yours stays on too, so I know my baby got home safe.

06

We both ignore the opposite gender

Not a rule I'm putting on you. It's the line we both hold, the same way, because we already chose each other and inshallah that's where this is going.

my promise

If a girl comes up to me, alone or with friends, I don't engage. No small talk, no numbers, no keeping something going because it would be awkward not to. I walk away and I tell you it happened.

your promise

Same from you. If a guy comes up, you keep it moving. Besides professors, that's different and neither of us is weird about that.

07

Our privacy

Our relationship stays between us unless we both agree we need advice from someone we trust.

my promise

I don't talk bad about you to anyone. Ever.

your promise

You don't either. No one else gets a seat in our arguments.

08

Ask before assuming

If something looks weird or doesn't make sense, we're gonna ask first instead of assuming the worst.

my promise

I ask you calmly and I actually listen to the answer.

your promise

You explain instead of shutting down, and you give me the chance to be wrong.

09

A promise is a promise

We're not gonna promise things just to end an argument. If one of us says 'I promise' or 'wallah,' we mean it.

my promise

I don't say it unless I'm going to do it.

your promise

You don't either. Our word has to actually mean something.

10

Quality time

We're both gonna be busy in college, but that doesn't mean we stop making time for each other.

my promise

I make time for you. FaceTime, calls, date nights when we can, sleeping on call, sleepovers every month or two.

your promise

You make time for me. However busy it gets, we still feel like we're in a relationship.

11

Making each other better

We're supposed to push each other in school, work, deen, and life, not hold each other back.

my promise

I want you to do amazing out there. I'm proud of you already.

your promise

You push me too. We grow together, not apart.

12

What's mine is yours

We're practically gonna be married, inshallah.

my promise

You're taking my card. When you're low, when you need something, whenever, no asking twice.

your promise

You tell me when you need something instead of going without.

13

Trust, the whole point

The point of all of this is that one day we don't need a list at all.

my promise

I stop watching. I let go, because you gave me reasons to.

your promise

You keep being someone easy to trust. And it stops being work and just becomes us.

I love you so much, Manahil.

I wanna spend the rest of my life with you and I can't wait to. I've got things to work on and so do you, and we'll do it together. Let's stay good, my baby girl.

my mahiwu, always

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